The physical limitations are starting again but today I am trying to medicate myself accordingly and plow through the tough times. I'm not able to see my therapist so it's up to me to use the tools I've got in my toolbox to apply to the difficulties swimming around in my head and in my heart.
I can't drive. I can't concentrate. I couldn't meet Alicia for the bus. I had to stay home. It was stressful and disappointing. But Tina said she could keep Ryan home and get the help she needed before mom arrived in a few hours. I needed to rest. So I walked over to Pam's, picked out some DVD series, went to Jewel and rested.
Yes, my body still shook. Yes, I still had to take more medication that usual. Yes, it made me drowsy. Yes, my brain wasn't functioning on all cylinders. It's been that way for over a year. I was able to do what needed to be done - nothing more, nothing less.
This is the closest video I could find to what I experience during a seizure. Except mine seem to last longer then go into a complex partial seizure which lasts anywhere from a few minutes to an hour and twenty minutes.
